MATT BENTLEY, I LOVE YOU!!!!

~ These are from Dream for an Insomniac ~

=My biggest fear is that I will become too comfortable with the idea of being lonely for the rest of my life.

=I don't love him. I don't know that I ever have or ever will...but when I'm with him I can't seem to remember that.

=Sometimes it hurts so much to go but not enough to stay.

=Unless it's mad, passionate, extraordinary love, It's a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life. Love shouldn't be one of them.



(OOC: all quotes taken from the LJ of kora_flair Thank you)

( Don't know what ya got til it's gone )

That dirty rotten lil bastard!! He kissed me. Ewwwweeeee... Naaaaaasssssty!

Fuckin' Petey Williams! *snorts* bleeeeeeeech! omg omg omg! So gross! At least Chris came in and saved me before Williams put his nasty ass move on me. Gaaah! Two weeks in a row... that's just friggin' gross as hell. Thank you, Chris... Again! Love ya (cuddles)

( Piccies cut )

It seems that I am saying goodbye to people in my life way to often...Stevie Lee was one of the first workers I met outside of Canada. We met the first time in Detroit, MI. and from then on we were buddies....we kept running into each other through the States and did a week tour in Nova Scotia...its funny how you always expect to see someone on the road...the last time I spoke to Stevie Lee was through a text, I just figured I would call him in a week or so but then you wake up one morning to hear that he is not with us anymore, taken away from his family, wife, and from the business he loved........I keep thinking why didn't I pick up the phone to call instead of text, why was I so busy that I couldn't pick up the phone to call my friend? it seems like we just said goodbye to Chris Candido and now Sweet Stevie Lee, another member of our wrestling family..Stevie you will be missed and I will always cherish the memories I have of you.....thank you for being a friend..God Bless....

This is definitely a lesson for me, always make time for your friends and your family...even if you are having a bad day and don't want to talk to anyone, pick up the phone when someone calls and take the time to be a friend....life is to short so make the best of it and live life to the fullest....

....Michael, I love you. I'm sorry....

I woke up before Chris, pulling my jeans on under his shirt, jotting him a quick note before leaving:

"Cuddles-
I'll call later. I won't say I'm sorry about what happened because that would be a lie. I just want you to know that as much as I -wanted- you...
and God.. I wanted you so damn desperatly. I love Red like a lil brother and could never hurt him... and then there's Michael. There's always Michael but then again.. you know that much too!
Love and (more) kisses-
Traci♥"


I drove around for awhile, trying to think of what to say to Michael. Trying to think of a way to make this look like exactly what it is.. that nothing happened with me and Chris. I sigh, pulling into the driveway, seeing his silhouetted frame behind the lace curtain where he usually waits for my return...*

Fuuuuuuck! *I moan as I turn the key in the ignition and the mustang ingine purrs to a complete halt.. much the same as my heartbeat...

( It was only a kiss )


KILLERS-
"Mr Brightside"

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

Cause I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...

Well its official TNA debuted on Spike TV... I cant wait to hear what the couch potato marks bitch about now...LOL!!!

I am back home in Canada on a bit of a holiday... I had a chance to get back to where I trained and get in the ring for a few days... its so funny because people(fans)do not realize I can wrestle and have been wrestling all across the States and Canada for the past 5 years.. I guess I am going to take this chance to clear up some stuff people are confused about

1. TNA Traci is Tracy Brooks on the indys.
2. I started training in 2000 in Toronto, ON and had my first match in Jan. 2001.
3. I started training at Sullys Gym for the first year or so and then Squared Circle Training opened and I contuned my training with them under head instuctor Rob Fuego...
4. I trained with Gail Kim and we traveled together for at least a year or more
5. I had a handful of try outs with the WWE but then joined TNA in May 2003 where I have been ever since.
6. I have NO kids.
7. Never been married.
8. Yes my breast are fake and I have only had them done once.

If there is anything else people would like to know please feel free to email me and I will be happy to answer them for you.....

Remember to watch TNA every Sat. night on Spike TV and catch the replay mondays....

Hugs and Kisses-
Traci